To accept suffering

The clock ticks away
Yet I am sitting here
I wish things were better-
Easier so I don’t suffer
But who am I to wish
Or to hope for such thing
For what cannot be changed
I have to welcome and embrace
In isolation, confusion and pain
I will bless the name of the Lord

All About You

You are, the Holy One
You are, the Living Word
You are, the center of my focus, Jesus
You are, the Son of God
You are, the Solid Rock

You are, the center of my focus, Jesus
You're the lover of my soul

You are, the Holy One
You are, the Living Word
You are, the center of my focus, Jesus
You are, the Son of God
You are, the Solid Rock
You are, the center of my focus Jesus

You're the lover of my soul
And I adore You only

Chorus
It's all about You
All about You
It's all about You, Jesus
It's all about You
All about You
It's all about You, Jesus

Verse 2:
You are miraculous
You are supernatural
You are the center of my focus, Jesus
You are all powerful
You are so wonderful
You are the center of my focus

Jesus You’re the lover of my soul
And I adore You only

Chorus
It's all about You
All about You
It's all about You, Jesus
It's all about You
All about You
It's all about You, Jesus

Nobody else
Nobody else
Nobody else
‘Cause its all about You (4x)

Arranjo (Da, na, na, ra, ra, na, na, na…)

It's all about You
All about You
It's all about You, Jesus
It's all about You
All about You
It's all about You, Jesus

lyrics added by Villardi Oliveira

One of my all time favourite praise song.

He got the job!

Praise the Lord! My boyfriend secured the job he interviewed for and they buy him out one month from the current company. Today also, he solved and closed a file. I don’t know much yet till he comes back tonight to tell me about it but I am so happy! Praise the Lord. He saw him through the last few weeks of work and favoured him. The Lord gives and takes away. This promotion comes from the Lord. My boyfriend have always told me, if we follow God closely and honour Him, He will take care of us and bless us. That is true! Hallelujah. This is a testimony. Can’t wait to talk to him tonight.

Back again.

This is the first time in my 9 years as a Christian that I received two calls from church leaders asking me if things are going all right with me. It’s a shock to me because I have always been okay until June last year. I guess I was also relieved because someone cared and someone asked. I have always battled alone ever since I have been away from home. I caved in and kept everything to myself for more than a year now. It is not natural for me not to express myself. When you see me quiet, you know something is wrong. I have failed to blog expressively too. I started by making it a private scene and then I opened it up again. Changed the domain name and then informed a group of people. Then I realised I don’t even want them to read and then I started screening and sifting out contents. I’ve become a different person. Bitter and worried. It’s been hard. Then I stopped turning to God because I felt that He would tell me things I wouldn’t want to listen. I am afraid His answers would be what I didn’t want to hear. In fact, I think really it wont be what I like. Got into a fight with my bf too. Gahh… Things have changed and I have changed. But God stays true to Himself. I can always hide from people but not from God. The Lord always have a way to deal with me. He speaks to me through my mother (when I start opening up to her), through dreams (always) and through others (church leaders and friends). I’m back. It just hurts to much to be away from me.

They’re gonna pray for me tonight.

Calling in sick. Swedish Bun – Jamie Oliver (Jamie Does)

Hi there. I am not feeling too well today. Started with a pain in my throat when I woke up this morning. Yesterday I started having a runny nose and it got blocked throughout the night. I really feel like resting a bit but no, I am plonk-ed right in front of my laptop watching videos on Youtube on how to make marshmallow fondants and I’ve also subscribed to Jamie Oliver.

Check out the Swedish Bun from his book Jamie Does.

Pretty cool. It’s really messy but it should be fun especially if you’re gonna have kids on a baking activity! Kids make lots of mess and you can really get frustrated looking at flour and dough all over the place, and places where there shouldn’t be any. Looking at Jamie Oliver do this makes me feel somewhat relieved that it ‘doesn’t need to be all neat and tidy.’ So, THUMBS UP!

I’m thinking I should take a nap now. I’m feeling woozy and my eyes are warm. No fever please 😦 I’ve got a report to rush and I need them PR people to get back to me asap!

Is this entry bad or what for Jamie? I mean to relate his buns to being sick. Sorry, Jamie.

Your brown eyes makes me want four million

I look into your brown eyes
And I see a thousand colours
Like dozens of rainbows
Like carts of lollipops

I look into your brown eyes
And I feel a million sensations
The warm of fuzzy feeling
The cool on your lips

I look into your brown eyes
And I want four million kisses
One for you, two to keep
Then one for you to kiss me

And she’s right.

I had a rough night yesterday and I finally wrote in my prayer diary. It was some time ago the last time I wholehearted prayed. I cried and I really just wanted answers from God. Finally, He got me back. He searched for me high and low so that I would be with Him again. He searched for the one lost sheep that the shepherd would go after because if not, it is not complete it. I’ve strayed. The Lord tried to draw me back to him in many ways, especially through dreams. I would dream a situation that would be very similar to my life context, though it is a different story. And when I wake up, I learned something new about myself and why things happened like they did. He spoke to me though church leaders that knows little about my situation. Whatever they said seem to fit so rightly and so perfectly for me. Yet, I didn’t want to accept what I was hearing. Finally yesterday, I spoke to a church member of mine. She said ‘Something is wrong if you are pulling away from church.’

And she’s right. I am praying again.

Can cats and rats be friends?

So adorable! Maybe I should have a pair next time 🙂 What do you think?

i wear your scent (via internal thoughts of a random mind)

Baby, this reminds me of you 🙂 I love your scent, with and without perfume. When are you hug me and hold me close again?!

i wear your scent like a deja vu i wrap you around my body and carry you in my heart the smell of you awakening every memory in the caverns of my mind. I wrap your scent around my body hold it close…like your old t-shirt…as if it were made just for me… with all the remnants of  the days before. the years, the days, the minutes…all blend into one defining moment the smiles, tears and heartaches…i feel them now like i am feeling them for … Read More

via internal thoughts of a random mind

The art of doing chores

Been away for a bit now. Last Sunday I had a conversation with a church member. I told her that I love doing housework. That includes washing dishes, putting and taking out clothes from the washer and dryer, washing the toilet, sweeping or vacuum-ing the floor and mopping the floor. Wiping the windows are fine too.

But, I don’t like ironing and folding clothes because ironing makes me warm and it’s really boring. You feel so alone and a little dumb looking at shirts or blouses you’re ironing… then folding clothes gives me dry hands 😦 My hands are already dry. Bad thing is the boyfriend doesn’t like ironing too. So, I guess that’ll be a give and take thing in the future.

Don’t you find washing the dishes and mopping the floor therapeutic? If only we don’t fuss about doing housework and take it as an escape or getaway from our daily job… it would be – therapeutic. Try thinking this way the next time you are at your sink or in the toilet.

Also, housework won’t be as frustrating if you do it consistently and not wait for the dishes and dust to pile up. If you master the art of doing housework, you’ve reached kama-sutra. Joking.